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Wow it's been over a year since I last posted anything here. I bet you all thought I gave up on this site or something.
Well surprise I've actually been active on dA for the entire time, just not posting anything.
See I use this site to keep track of my fav artists so I actually check my messages like twice a day, even if no one's heard from me since last July.
I'd like to say that I'm going to be coming back to the site fully because all the kinks in my life have worked themselves out and whatever; but no that's not the case sadly.
I'm actually dealing with so much mental turmoil I can't work and can only take two classes in college, one of which I'm failing dramatically.
So why am I here? Because I've still been drawing, and like everyone else seek attention through art. Don't lie, the only reason anyone posts anything anywhere is so people pay attention to it. It's the entire point.
However, I don't know if I'll be putting anything on this account. I've had it a while after all and the name was made when I was like eight so it no longer works for me lol. I'm going to see about making a new account, which will be where I will be active. If I do I'll say something no duh.
I know I never got much notability so really this is all going to be based on the opinions of people who see this journal. After all there's no point to me sharing what i know no one will care about, I will admit I do want attention. We all do, if not our friends would be the only ones that get to see our works which isn't as constructive.
If I don't make another account I'll make one on tumblr and I'll update if so.
Well surprise I've actually been active on dA for the entire time, just not posting anything.
See I use this site to keep track of my fav artists so I actually check my messages like twice a day, even if no one's heard from me since last July.
I'd like to say that I'm going to be coming back to the site fully because all the kinks in my life have worked themselves out and whatever; but no that's not the case sadly.
I'm actually dealing with so much mental turmoil I can't work and can only take two classes in college, one of which I'm failing dramatically.
So why am I here? Because I've still been drawing, and like everyone else seek attention through art. Don't lie, the only reason anyone posts anything anywhere is so people pay attention to it. It's the entire point.
However, I don't know if I'll be putting anything on this account. I've had it a while after all and the name was made when I was like eight so it no longer works for me lol. I'm going to see about making a new account, which will be where I will be active. If I do I'll say something no duh.
I know I never got much notability so really this is all going to be based on the opinions of people who see this journal. After all there's no point to me sharing what i know no one will care about, I will admit I do want attention. We all do, if not our friends would be the only ones that get to see our works which isn't as constructive.
If I don't make another account I'll make one on tumblr and I'll update if so.
I Just Can't Take It
I recently realized, I can't come out to my family that I'm ace
This brought up a conversation between me and my closest friends, where they brought up some points and now I'm not even sure if I am ace
For all I know I could just be some idiot who thinks they're special
But I've been questioning myself for two years trying to figure out what I am
I'm not attracted to guys
I'm not attracted to girls
But, what if I'm just not attracted to guys/girls I know
What if I really haven't met "the right person"
Up to now I was sure I'm ace, I mean I met all the criteria I could find, it made sense to me
Now though, I don't know what I am
And
I Lived
Today, I graduated highschool
Today, I looked back on everything that's happened to me in the last four years
Today, I realized all I had truly gone and suffered through
Today, I celebrated
Because today, I beat them
I conquered an army of personal demons,
Survived endless self bullying,
Seven years of intense depression and thoughts of suicide,
And I beat it all into the earth as I walked that stage,
Because after countless years spent alone, lost, and without hope or help,
I walked and freed myself infront of the people who mean the world to me,
And there is no greater feeling on earth than knowing that.
Just Saying
According to Tumblr it's Ace Day
This is just according to Tumblr but hey where's the harm
I'm Asexual/Aromantic
Get over it
SO HERE'S THE DEAL
I DO NOT HAVE THE EFFORT IT TAKES TO MAKE A COMIC OR MAKE A SPECIES
I DO HOWEVER HAVE THE BOREDOM TO OPEN UP MY THREE WORD ADOPTS
I WILL NOW EXPLAIN THESE AS HOPEFULLY AT LEAST ONE PERSON WILL READ THIS
I will work on color pallets that will serve as the base for the adopts, each will go for maybe twenty to thirty points depending on the amount of colors because I'm a greedy little peasant
You will adopt them, then state three words.
There will be restrictions on the words because they are supposed to be random, however these restrictions will be posted with the pallets because I'm also a lazy little peasant
Rules Rules Rules Blah Blah
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